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SAMPLE OF ERIKA RUMMEL'S NEW NOVELLA, PLOT LINES.
Angela has two problems. She needs a job. And she needs to get rid of her internal critic, a niggling voice telling her: You are a total failure. She is on her way to an interview with the director of The Cryonic Institute, and the voice is like a hum in her ear: This is going to be another failure.
...The Institute turns out to be a converted
warehouse. The windows on the first floor are boarded up and spray-painted in
looping tags. My internal message board starts blinking: Loser! Right. Only a loser would apply for this job.
I hesitate. A plastic bag dances by, drags
past the tattoo parlour, hangs up on a hydrant, and blows across Tilman Street. The place looks seedy, but what the hell,
I’ve come this far. I might as well go through with the interview. It’s only a
summer job. I push the button on the intercom.
A crackling noise comes at me, and the door
buzzes open.
“Charles Otis?” I say to the man who meets me
in the hall.
“That’s me,” he says and shows me into his
office. He has a film noir look: white lab coat, body listing sideways, cheeks
furrowed like bark. Jekyll turning into Hyde? The lab coat gives him a
surface-clean look, but when I go past him, I catch a whiff of old man.
Otis lifts a piece of paper from his
cluttered desk – I recognize the resume I sent him.
“Angela Kelly,” he says, reading the header.
“Good Irish name.”
“My grandfather was Irish.”
Otis runs his finger down the printout. “BA.
Double Major: English and Philosophy.” He looks at me for confirmation.
I nod. I shouldn’t have mentioned philosophy. It invites awkward follow-up questions. What
kind of philosophy? Moral philosophy. “Like,
religion?” someone asked me at a party. “Like, you want to be a nun or
something?” Philosophy is a date-breaker and an interview spoiler. It doesn’t
give out the right message. It projects the image of someone remote from the
centre of things, someone without practical skills. A
useless tit. That’s the other problem with studying philosophy. It tightens
the mechanism for self-evaluation. Everything becomes a matter of conscience.
An inquisition starts up in the brain, probing the moral fibre, looking for
tender spots. Every thought, every decision comes under investigation: the items on my grocery list, mileage and gas
consumption, choice of TV channel, choice of boyfriend, quality of seminar
presentation, the new haircut, meeting parental expectations -- and the verdict is always: guilty as
charged.
“I see you worked at the registry office for
a year,” Otis says. “You quit, or they let you go?”
“I
went back to graduate studies. Film History.”
Otis
bobbles his head approvingly. “So you think you’ve got the right qualifications
for this job?”
“The ad wasn’t specific. It only said:
computer skills required.”
“You have computer skills?”
“Up to a point.”
“This is basic stuff,” Otis says and gives me
a beagle-eyed look, almost as if he was begging me to take the job.
He is offering reasonably good money. Why is
there no line-up of applicants? It’s the nature of the business, I speculate.
The idea of freeze-dried corpses is disconcerting. Or maybe the slummy location is putting
people off. New message: Only a loser
would want to work here, Angela -- How
do you change the internal setting and shut down the messenger in your brain?
“Let me explain what’s involved,” Otis says.
He points to a bank of filing cabinets. “These,” he says, sweeping the tops
with a proprietary hand, “--these contain the data and personal reminiscences
of our clients. When they enrol, I encourage them to provide a detailed account
of their life and to store keepsakes and photos with us to make it easier to
energize their memories after reanimation.”
He pulls out a few files to show me.
They contain typed accounts and hand-written memos, newspaper clippings,
souvenir postcards, bookmarks, baby bracelets, snapshots. Otis wants them
converted to electronic files.
I look around the office. There is
no computer, no printer, no copier, just a battery of grey filing cabinets, a
burled-wood desk right out of a 50s Sears Catalogue, and another relic from the
distant past: a small portable TV
sitting on top of a VCR. “I don’t see a computer,” I say.
“I thought you’d like to use your
own,” Otis says.
“You mean you want me to work from
home?” That would solve the problem of commuting. The area looks like the kind
of ‘hood, where you can’t leave a car unattended without someone scraping a key
across the door panel or punching out a window and rifling through your glove
compartment.
“I guess you could take the files
home -- as long as we make copies first,” Otis says. “That’s my worry, you see.
That’s why I want them digitized, to protect them against loss or damage --
fire, break-in, vandalism, that sort of thing. I want them preserved in
electronic form, arranged in a systematic manner, searchable – you can do that
for me, right?”
“Are you saying I’m hired?”
“You look like the right person for the job.
It’s yours if you want it.” Otis looks t me with a sniffling kind of
eagerness.
“Thanks,” I say, but I feel no
satisfaction. It’s a sell-out, Angela, and you know it is. You are swapping valuable
creative time for a menial job. Well, yes, I don’t like the prospect of
working for Otis, or working at anything other than my screenplay. It’s still in the gestating phase. It doesn’t
have a story line as yet, but I have a theme, and it’s urgent to get on with
it. I want to write the internal niggling voice out of my life, uproot it, wrench
it from my gut and exile it to the printed page, get rid of the scruples
plaguing me at every step and transfer them to a script. I need to put together
a cast of characters who will take the load off my shoulders. I totally believe in the redemptive quality
of creative writing. I was going to spend the summer working on the script, but
that was before Spence maxed out my credit card and totalled my car...
“Those people awaiting reanimation,” I say,
“where are they?"
“Right here.” Otis points to the
floor, as if the corpses were tucked away underneath. “I’ll give you a tour of
the Institute.”
We walk from his office, down the corridor,
to a gray metal door which opens into a hall with quivering fluorescent ceiling
lights. It looks like a machine shop.
There’s an old assembly line running along one wall. On the other side
are rows of tall, stainless steel cylinders. They give off the humming sound of
refrigerators.
“You drain the bodily fluids and pump eight
litres of ethylene glycol into the arteries,” Otis explains. “Then the bodies
are stored upside down, suspended in liquid nitrogen at minus 320 F.” He points
at the tanks. “Each of these holds six people.”
What! Strangers strung up together like
pieces of meat? Without any privacy?
“You
store them naked?” I blurt out.
“No, in sleeping bags. Microtex. From
Walmart.”
“And
those?” I point to the square chests that look like domestic freezers.
“Those are for pets. I draw the line at
neuros – severed heads, you know. Some people argue that’s all you need to
preserve -- the head, that’s where your personality resides. I see no merit in
that argument. Severing the head is an indignity to the body of the departed.
In a hundred years from now, when scientists reanimate you, they can provide
brand new bodies if needed. Or else
they’ll be able to cure the old body of senescence. They’ll take care of the
wrinkles, the impotence, the damaged kidneys, the hair loss – the whole shebang
of imperfections, when they reanimate you.”
Otis speaks with the fervour of a believer.
The light of devotion shines in his eyes. I keep my mouth shut and bitterly
despise myself for remaining silent and engaging in situation ethics for the
sake of a job instead of challenging his assumptions. That’s so like you, Angela. You have no guts. I twitch my shoulders
to shake off the psychic despotism of the inner voice.
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