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Saturday 16 March 2024
Tuesday 20 February 2024
AFTER #KRISTALLNACHT(15): LETTERS TO MARGARETE GOLDSTEIN
Mainz, 28.3.39
My dear Gretel, thank you for your kind thoughts on this day. Oh, if only I was already out [of this life?] – I long so much for it. But no one asks about [my wishes], one has to suffer to the extreme end! You should know that, and [I am telling you now] only because I hope that it will not take much longer, or I would gladly have spared you for the time being. I suffer all the time, and all your prophesies of [the growth] stopping or similar developments, for which I myself have long waited like for the Messiah, are worth nothing. It would have been better if you had asked your clever physicians about medications that might help against the pain which gets worse with every day. Mind you, there is hardly any medication that Ernst [Emma’s doctor] hasn’t prescribed, who looks after me every week now. And since Saturday I also receive injections, which Sister Maria gives me …[illegible]. They make me very tired without helping me much. Today I went on strike. I wanted to write to you already in the morning while lying down, and after the injections I doze for hours. But today I was too tired, and now after my tea which always makes me feel a little better, I write to you immediately because I don’t know how I will feel over the next days and because I also must write to Lilly [Emma’s daughter in Buenos Aires] these days. I am bound to think a great deal about poor Julius [Gretel’s late husband], how much he had to suffer, how he lost weight and hardly had the will to eat anymore. I too am almost at that stage, for a long time now I have been terribly skinny, and most of the time I have to force myself to eat, but for certain reasons I want to hang on a little longer. But don’t come to me now – apart from the fact that you have no time, I no longer have a bed downstairs. The one upstairs in the attic is wrecked, and I returned Mrs. Achenbach’s bed to her. Gustel [Auguste Gutmann, married to Emma’s uncle] is living at Mimi’s [Emma’s sister] now, that poor thing is homeless since Saturday and still has no idea when she can leave and where to go, presumably first to Manchester. It looks like it’s not going to work out in Latvia [where Milly had a textile factory]. Milly stayed at first with Berthe [Bertha Goetz, related to Milly’s husband] in London, and I think, she is also now in Manchester – has she not talked with you? I am sorry that Ernst’s [Gretel’s youngest son] hand is still taking a long time to heal, but I can’t understand it. Your physicians don’t seem to be very skilful. I am surprised that H. wants to build a new future so far away, as she did quite well so far making progress. I am very sorry that now, that you have your furniture, you are not using it and are renting a flat – it’s not about the money that I have to pay (that will happen as soon as Dr. Kraus has permission), but that you have to pay 15 Pounds there now. Surely Wolfgang [Gretel’s oldest son] and Hans [Hans Juda, married to Gretel’s daughter Elsbeth] and Elsbeth too can manage that, and you can repay them later if they are in such need. There are many things in which I don’t understand you. For months you press me about your furniture and when you have it, you make difficulties for yourself. Don’t forget about Liebensteins [Emmas’s neighbours], they would like to know more details about you, and you won’t believe, how uncomfortable I am with that. This week a certain Mrs Lautner [?] was here twice, who wanted to have your address. She referred to a certain Mrs. Altschueler from Kaiserslauten, I believe, whom Julius [Gretel’s late husband] knew very well, and [talked] more such nonsense, and although I was in bed after the second injection, I asked her to come in, so I could [talk to her] myself. I said you are in the process of moving, I did not have an address for you, and why did she need it, etc. Of course it was about Woburn House [Jewish refuge centre aiding German and Austrian Jews to emigrate to Britain], so I quickly got rid of her. Tomorrow, after 5, I expect [a visit from] a gentleman from the local court for the purpose of a general power of attorney, valid also after my death. [It is] for my administrator, who will come along. I already…
[The end of this letter is
missing. Emma Neuman committed suicide on 3 April, 1939].
For the originals see LBI Archives AR 7167/MF 720.The
translation is by Erika Rummel and Susi Lessing.
Saturday 10 February 2024
AFTER #KRISTALLNACHT(14): LETTERS TO MARGARETE GOLDSTEIN
22.3. 1939
My dear Gretel, I just settled
down to write to you, that is, stretched out on the chaise longue, as I always
do in the morning -- earlier I had called Dr. Kr[aus], unfortunately to no
purpose because you always tell me half of everything or less than half -- when
Mrs. Liebenstein [Emma’s neighbour] arrived for a lengthy visit. She too
had nothing pleasant to tell me. First about Dr. Kr[aus]: You tell me that your
furniture is now at customs, for which I was very glad. As you write that
everything is working out once I pay, I waited until this morning for a call
from Dr. K. telling me to send the money. Then I called him myself, so I could
write about it to you, and heard to my surprise that I need not look after
anything, that you knew everything from him, from Br. and Roth etc., also the
main thing – that the 15 Pounds must be paid there in foreign currency, as for
sending the money to the company one first needs permission from the foreign
currency office. Dr. K. is of the opinion, which I second, that it cannot be
very difficult for you to have someone there pay the 80 Marks or lend them to
you. Is Wolfgang [Gretel’s oldest son] not able to do so, or Turk [?] or
whoever else there may be? And I cannot understand that you cannot find
sufficient time for yourself, to rent a flat. After all that is also important,
and mainly, let me advise you not to rent just a place for the summer now that
it will soon be warm weather, but rather to think of winter, so that you will
have a warm and comfortable place by then. You know how bad this winter was,
and we had snow until yesterday and very cold temperatures. Mrs. Liebenstein
was very indignant – I promised to report it to you. She wrote to you twice in
five months, always with return postage, and you remained mum (she said). She
has a very rich brother in Lugano [?], who will give full guarantees for her,
and they also want to go to England and would like to know how much money they
have to deposit and for how many years. I promised to write that to you, and
perhaps you could write to her directly at Kaiserstasse 41 or write to me, and
she will pick up the answer in eight days. It would be best if you told her
about the office where she needs to apply. If you could do so, I personally
would like it if you took care of her a little. She was not wrong to say: if
one lives 30 years in a house, well, etc. To get back to your office affairs,
may I ask: What do you mean when you say “Tell Oppenh[eimer] and the other
relatives that I have nothing at all to do with Wob[urn] House”? [Woburn
House was the Jewish Refugee Centre helping German and Austrian Jews to
emigrate to Britain.] I know that very well and haven’t been asked for your
address or anything else in a long time. Who is Oppenheimer? As far as I
remember…Marianne [?] asked for your address. Are the Webers finally leaving
you in peace? I haven’t heard from them in a long time. Mar.’s principle is to
write to us only when she wants something, and Lilly v H [i.e. from Hanau?]
didn’t even think of visiting me. Some time ago I wrote to you “I bet you ten
to one, that you won’t guess who visited me” – since it is a riddle, put a
“Dr.” in front, and you’ll solve it. That Lilly has an acquaintance in Hanau,
you know as well as I do, you silly girl! Did you not at the time take my
silverware along? [A decree of Feb 21 1939 required Jews to turn in gold,
silver, and other valuables to the state without compensation.] Otherwise, I don’t understand your doubts.
Adele visited me yesterday morning and told me much that was of interest. After
years of hesitation on B’s part, she and B intend to visit your hospitable
island, but how long will it take [to realize that]? T. Georgi was here just
now for an hour in the morning and brought me a very kind letter from Irmgard
and a piece of Prinzregenten cake from the birthday [celebration]. Lieschen
arrived safely in C[anada] with her party of five. Now, after my tea, I am
sitting once again at my desk, expecting Mimi [Wilhelmine Bing, Emma’s
sister] shortly, perhaps also Guste [Auguste Gutmann, married to Emma's
uncle] and am sending you, my dear child, 1000 heartfelt greetings and
kisses for today. Your devoted mother.
FOR MORE LETTERS SEE MY NEXT BLOGPOST. For the originals
see LBI Archives AR 7167/MF 720.The translation is by Erika Rummel
and Susi Lessing.
Sunday 4 February 2024
AFTER #KRISTALLNACHT(13): LETTERS TO MARGARETE GOLDSTEIN
Thursday, 16.3. 1939
My dear Gretel, for once your dear
letter arrived a day late, instead I received a letter from Dr. K[raus] on
Tuesday answering my letter of 19.2. It is a good thing that February is over,
those people were very stressed with filing taxes, etc. – that’s also how he
justifies his late reply. As he wrote that you are informed about everything
and that he has sent you a number of copies, I won’t deal further with the
contents of his letter to me. Yesterday I gave it to Dietz, so that he can
discuss most of the content with him and can then report back about it to me.
One matter, about which I immediately contacted the company Zo [?] by phone, as
his report that you had received the clearance document for your furniture, and
he asked me whether I wanted or was in a position to pay for it. I explained to
him that the money was available to him any time (of course he will have to
negotiate with the currency exchange office first) and must immediately inform
me when he has any information, also from the company Br. and R. because he still
has to inquire how much has to be paid. He mentioned ca. 250 Marks – I hope it
isn’t much more. I can see, however, that you yourself have contributed to the
delay of the matter. First you tormented me for weeks about paying the money
for the furniture, for which I had no opportunity however (it is amazing how
ignorant you are over there about the circumstances and regulations here), and
now you have allowed 2 weeks to pass without informing me what I ought to do. I
would of course have instructed Dr. K[raus] to have your furniture released, in
which case you might perhaps have had them by 1. April, and for which you are
so eager. That appears to be very questionable to me now, although Dr. Kr[aus]
is of the opinion that the company can send the furniture as soon as they have
the money. For your sake I hope that’s the case. I am glad that you were able
to spend a nice evening with F and also that you are now going out more often.
The monotonous life you led combined with the heavy load of work does not suit
you, and I can also tell from your letters that you are in a better state [of
mind] now and not as harassed and upset as you were at first, even though there
are quite a few things that seem to depress you now. But that will also be
resolved. Ernst St. [Emma’s doctor] was here just now. He looks in on me
now every week and regularly prescribes painkillers for me, first Enkodal,
today also Optalidon, but unfortunately they no longer help, and I have to
suffer the pain and grit my teeth. It is one advantage that the nights are
better than the days, and I am able to sleep for a few hours, with sufficient
medication, that is. You wanted a report about my condition and you mustn’t
have any illusions, just as I no longer have any. Even the nice comforting thought
of spring no longer works for me, unless a miracle happened and the growth of
the tumour stopped, and I still have a little hope of that coming about.
Nevertheless, don’t worry about me, my dear child, you know that I won’t
readily throw in the towel and am not easily overcome. The most important thing
for me is that you are happy and content, and this is the greatest consolation
to me. You know, I overestimated your intelligence! That’s the consequence,
that you silly child don’t occupy yourself crossword puzzles and other riddles
and did not quite understand the clever riddle I posed you. By the way, letter
was once again opened by the customs office “to check on currency exchange”.
Have my letters been opened as well? I should have written “Rosenecke” [?]
instead of “Hanau” – perhaps you would have understood the riddle a little better
then, or perhaps “Tiloit” [?] or something similar. But you did know that L had
friends in H[anau]? Well then!! I hope you had good news from Ernst [Margarete’s
son], and his finger will soon be healed. Will he get his old job back? You won’t have such an urgent need for the old
fine handkerchiefs, as you write, and you will perhaps soon haven an
opportunity to pick them up yourself. One can’t entrust that to another person,
or don’t you know that either? In any case they are not that valuable, they
won’t make anyone rich. Why would I worry about Kahn [?]? I told you that this
business is all the same to me, I don’t even think about such things. Instead,
I have a lot of things to do with my administrator and put in order before 1.4.
[the date on which an instalment of the wealth tax was due, according to the
ordinance of 21 November 1938], we must wait for the decision about the
taxes, and other such things. Gustl’s [Auguste, cousin of Emma’s father] affairs
are one step further, the day before yesterday their furniture was finally
taken away in a small container [?], for which they had to pay a year [in
advance] so that it can remain in the duty-free harbour – for first they have
to obtain the immigration permit, and during all those preparations things
often change completely on account of new regulations, which appear overnight.
I
have to end for today and remain with 1000 kind greetings and kisses,
Your devoted old Mother
FOR MORE LETTERS SEE MY NEXT BLOGPOST. For the originals
see LBI Archives AR 7167/MF 720.The translation is by Erika Rummel
and Susi Lessing.
Tuesday 23 January 2024
AFTER #KRISTALLNACHT (12): LETTERS TO MARGARETE GOLDSTEIN
Wednesday 8.3. 1939
My dear Gretel, yesterday I
received your dear letter of Sunday, as I do every Tuesday, and took great
pleasure in it because the contents did not affect my mood as negatively as they
do most of the time. It is good that you have a little more time for yourself
now, at least you can spend Monday and Saturday afternoons as you please,
although you still have to deal with too much correspondence. Forgive my
scribbling, I am trying for once to write to you while I lying down, because in
the afternoon that is better for my leg. And to lie down and do nothing is
terrible for me and only fatigues me. Yesterday I looked through the old
account books while lying down, and through he housekeeping book of my dear
grandmother, all of which is to be pulped, together with the contents of
another bookcase, as well as Der Morgen [a German-Jewish literary
magazine founded by Julius Goldstein, Emma’s son-in-law, published between 1925
and 1938] – or should I not do that? But what will happen with it in
future? In the afternoon I am more hands-on (although I’m talking about my
leg!) and at that time I also have A[delheid]’s [Emma’s maid] help.
First the laundry was put away, then the (finally cleaned) bookcase was set up
– earlier on, there was still broken glass in it from 10. 11. [a reference
to Pogromnacht, when Nazis rampaged and destroyed Jewish property]—but with
almost no books, and why bother? Last week I gave away a huge number, including
several novels, to Babettchen, to whom Mrs. Schweizer, her sister, has set a
good example. In other respects, too, she is a woman who does an infinite
amount of good and constantly cares for the poor. This time your letter was
opened by the foreign exchange office, and some time ago the same happened with
one of Lilly’s [emma’s oldest daughter]. But they miscalculated. They
could see only what good and loving daughters I have, so ha-ha! And you write
that you are now in possession of the clearance certificate for the furniture –
so what’s next? Who notified you of this? I wish you’d write in a little more
detail about these things, also if anyone else apart from me reported to you
about the tax ruling of 800 Marks, and why suddenly such a large sum. Your
friend Kahn [?] threated through his advisor to force an auction. The letter
was addressed to my administrator, with a copy to me. I am waiting what the
future will bring. I just want to know who will take care of your furniture –
since I will shell out the money for it. I don’t want you to be under any illusion
that you will have the furniture by 1.4., as much as I would wish it for your
sake. Aunt Pauline, who emigrated in May, has only now come into possession of
hers. It is true, however, that there were constantly new difficulties and new
regulations. On Saturday afternoon I had pleasant visitors, and in addition I
invited Mimi [Emma’s sister, Wilhelmine Bing]– indeed, I can’t seat more
than 4 persons at the table in the living room. I bet you 10 to 1 that you
won’t guess who my visitors were, but not to make the test too hard on your
curiosity, I will tell you that they are Lilly’s friends from Hanau. I even let
them take along the fine little handkerchief which you left behind in the
summer – it would be regrettable if it got into the wrong hands. Well then,
they are approximately 2 hours [away], you will find the address in the list of
names in the green address book. Besides, Mimi knows about it, and I am sure
you will have an opportunity at some time, when it’s worth your while, to fetch
the handkerchief or have it brought to you. That answers your question of last
month.
This
morning I received a list of silver items one may keep or must surrender. I
wanted to tell you in case you don’t know about that, and I am glad I no longer
have much silver, yet sorry for every single piece that I must surrender. Last
week I forgot to write to you about a letter from Rose which came to my address
but was meant for you and asks for your address. She writes from Villars [skiing
area in Switzerland] (the highest and most beautiful place in all of
“Bexen” [Bex, town at the foot of Villars]), where she accepted a
position for a few months. – Now that I have gotten up, I see that the letter
is for me after all. She just wants to know whether you are still en France
[in France], etc. and where, and she complains bitterly that she has
lost a great deal on account of her husband’s brother, that she couldn’t pay
the interest (ses intérêts),
that’s why she took this job. Yet she kindly invites me, if necessary, to
come to her, saying that she had always room for me. She wants your address –
should I give it to her? I am sure she will not ask you or me for anything. If
you do not write to her, I will, she is there only until 20.3.
A
few days ago someone from the Staedtische Sparkasse [municipal bank] called
concerning your taxes. I referred the gentleman to Dr. Kraus [Emma’s legal
counsel, former mayor of Mainz]. [I said that Kraus] took over those
matters because I am too old and sick, and he ought to call him. Have you heard
anything about that? K[raus] no longer tells me anything, I assume that he
corresponds with you directly and that you know more than I. Perhaps this
matter is connected with your furniture – I don’t know a thing about it. When
Milly [Amalie Schwarz, emma’s sister, who later left for Riga and Great
Britain] is there, I assume you will talk to her, then she can report to
you about Leo herself. That idiot has only now, that is, a short while ago,
applied for an extension to his resident permit. I am glad that family M will come to you
shortly, but it is tragic that the poor man has to go on suffering so much,
just like poor L in L – which again shows the duplicate nature of the cases.
Here the weather has also turned warmer, and I frequently air out the apartment
and sometimes also go out on the balcony – but that’s not possible today
because of the stormy weather.
I
want to conclude because Mimi will soon arrive, perhaps also Georgi [perhaps
Georgine Eller, Emma’s sister], and then I won’t be able to continue
writing, or rather to send off the letter, because Adelheid has been
participating in air raid safety exercises for more than 8 days, and I want her
to take the letter along around 7.30. Prior to that of course she will look
after my dinner, and everything is prepared for that.
Stay
healthy, my child, and be especially careful in this March weather. By the way,
did you solve my riddle? I don’t think it was hard.
All my love and
heartfelt greetings and kisses from your loving mother.
FOR MORE LETTERS SEE MY NEXT BLOGPOST. For the originals
see LBI Archives AR 7167/MF 720.The translation is by Erika Rummel
and Susi Lessing.
Thursday 18 January 2024
AFTER #KRISTALLNACHT(11): LETTERS TO MARGARETE GOLDSTEIN
Wednesday 1.3. 39
My dear Gretel, although I am
rather tired after a bad night, I did finally get up for an hour before the
meal at noon, after I had dozed on the chaise longue all morning – if only to
work up a little appetite for the meal, to have a little conversation with you,
and to answer your dear letter of Sunday. In the meantime, I was glad to have a
postcard from Lieschen and find out that she spent an evening with you, and I
was happy that you make exceptions [to your routine] and do occasionally spend
an evening with others. It is not good at all to be always on your own.
Lieselein wrote to Mimi [perhaps Wilhelmine Bing, Emma’s sister] that
you plan to become independent soon. I suppose that refers only to your
intention to rent a small apartment for yourself. Or do you have any other
plans? I was glad that you spent an afternoon with Wolfgang [Gretel’s oldest
son] and his family once again and I send my heartfelt thanks to him for
his kind lines and for the prospect of hearing more of him soon. Yesterday,
toward evening, I had a really pleasant surprise: Willichen [?][presumably
Willy, Emma’s nephew] came here with his mother [Jenny Saarbach, Emma’s
sister]. He arrived yesterday morning, just for the day, and left again
yesterday evening, because he will show up on your side within the next few days
– finally! It took especially long in his case. Mimi also came right away, and
he gave her an apparently good tip for Leo, which goes via Berthe, to whom
M[imi?] wanted to write yesterday already on Willy’s instruction.
This morning I
did not get around to continue writing because first my tenant, or rather the
tenant of Mrs. A [?] came downstairs and brought me a wonderful bouquet of
lilacs, then came my administrator with whom I always need to discuss all sorts
of things, and as is the case most of the time, it was 2 o’clock until I
finally ate. In future I will have even more business with him, and you will as
well, because we learned yesterday that from 1 April on the lawyers and
trustees are no longer permitted to work for us, so that Dr. K[raus] [former
mayor of Mainz, handling Emma’s affairs] will also be history by then. It
would be disastrous if this happens before your tax affairs are in order, but
Director Dietz believes that you will probably hand over the matter to him. The
two gentlemen are well acquainted and on friendly terms with each other, and
Mr. D[ietz] is also informed about all these matters through me and through
K[raus] – have you heard anything yet about this? I am sorry to hear that
Hannah [Gretel’s daughter] is in such pain, I hope she will soon be well
again. I am glad that your lecture was a success – a ringing [a pun? The
German “ringend” can also mean “clinking”, i.e. monetary] success, yes? As
for your readiness to help me, my dear child, I am very grateful for your offer
and that you and Lilly [Emma’s daughter, living in Buenos Aires] are
willing to look after me here. I would be sorry, however, if that became
necessary. So far I still manage quite well, and what is much more important, I
think I will be able to pay the two payments [taxes on assets, to be paid in
4 instalments] in May and August without further help. There is a chance
that I will be able to pay on 1 April the tax … by 1 February of this year, I
will be paid a sum exactly equivalent to this instalment, and the second
instalment in August is also taken care of, because I will still be paid 500
Marks out of Lilly’s locked account. In February the Department of Finance in
Frankfurt paid the sum directly to the local Department of Finance, but in case
I am no longer in a position to do the transaction, it would be a great comfort
to know that that money will not be used for other purposes. Now, lets’ hope
that I am still around to see 1 April, or the money is lost to us. If I tell
you that I do not want to live much longer, you mustn’t hold it against me, my
dear Gretel (but keep this confidential), as I have to suffer a great deal of
pain, and this will hardly improve, because miracles no longer happen! So far I
still have enough courage and the will to go through with it. Nights are
usually better than days, they are only occasionally bad, like last night.
Ernst [her doctor], who happened to be here yesterday, gives me
medications to ease the pain, and I just took a new medication with my tea a
little while ago – I hope it works better than the last one. As long as you
stay healthy and don’t work so hard, my dear! Indulge yourself occasionally,
which you can do with the money you meant for me.
Mimi
[Emma’s sister Wilhelmine Bing] is due to come soon and probably also
Georgi [probably Georgine Eller, another sister of Emma’s]. She is more
frequently with me than before because she has fewer distractions than earlier
– neither theatre, nor concerts, nor anything else. You could feel sorry for
her and even Gustel [Auguste Gutmann, Ferdinand Gutmann’s wife]
commiserates with her. And now goodbye for today, my dear. A[delheid] [Emma’s
maid] should take the letter along with her afterwards. Warm greetings and
kisses,
Your devoted mother
[on top of first page:] Warm
greetings to the children.
FOR MORE LETTERS SEE MY NEXT BLOGPOST. For the originals
see LBI Archives AR 7167/MF 720.The translation is by Erika Rummel
and Susi Lessing.
Sunday 14 January 2024
AFTER #KRISTALLNACHT (10): LETTERTO MARGARETE GOLDSTEIN
16.2. 39
My dear Gretel, now that I have gotten the airmail letter for Lilly’s
birthday ready for the mail, it’s your turn, my dear, and first let me confirm
receipt of your dear lines of Sunday. But, please, have your secretaries put a
new colour ribbon into your typewriter, I have to pour over [your letter] with
my weak eyes until I can decipher everything. I am glad that Ernst [Gretel’s
youngest son] is doing relatively well. Who knows what attending a
technical school for a while will be good for (even if it’s [not good] for your
wallet)? Maybe that will advance [his career] and may be closer to his own
inclinations. Chi lo sa? [Who knows?]
– I too am always busy and have paperwork and I do a lot myself that would
really be Dr. Kr[aus]’ [former mayor of Mainz, managing some of Emma’s
affairs] business, for example the tax on assets yesterday [A decree
issued in the spring of 1938 forced Jews to declare assets over 5,000 Marks and
pay 20% taxes on them in 4 instalments]. I had all sorts of correspondence
with the Mitteld[eutsche] Kreditbank in Frankfurt with respect to the blocked
account of Lilly [Emma’s oldest daughter, now living in Buenos Aires],
which is now a great blessing for me. I didn’t want to delay the matter, which
would have happened with Dr. K. because these people have a crazy workload,
especially this month, and so I managed the obtain confirmation from the bank
in Frankfurt almost 8 days ago that they have sent my instalment to the
Department of Finance. And I am all the more pleased because Dr. Kr[aus] charged
me 25 Marks for his work on the first instalment, and this time I saved that
amount. In addition I have a lot of preliminary work to do with the tax
declaration and am now waiting for Dir[ector] Dietz, who was unfortunately sick
at the end of last month. But he promised me this morning on the phone that he
would come tomorrow morning because I had received from the district court a letter
concerning the instalments, which must be answered. And so almost every day
brings something new, and most of the time nothing useful. In the afternoon I
almost always have visitors, such as an improvised tea with Mrs. Drexelius, who
succeeded Miss Stockmann on the 4th [floor], and in addition Bab. and
H.D. [?]. then also Georgi and Mimi [Emma’s sister Wilhelmine Bing], and
with those two I played Rommé, as usual, until about 7.30. It is touching
how Bab. and her husband are looking after me, [bringing me] things that can’t
be obtained easily here or can’t be obtained at all, and [their care] makes me
very glad. Do send greetings to B. occasionally [in your letter], she has of
course asked me to greet you many times, and she often pours her heart out to
me because she and her husband are forced to stay with relatives until they get
lucky and can go to their children, first to Fritz in Lfr [?] And then to Anny,
who lives near Rolf. This afternoon I expect Paul M[eyer] [a relative, Gustel
Gutmann’s brother] because I have a
letter for him from Lilly [Emma’s oldest daughter], which she sent to my
address because she does not know his new address and thinks Gustel has already
departed, but Gustel has still problems with the clearance connected with the
house, the mortgage, and similar matters [Gustel eventually fled to Riga,
where she was murdered]. C’est toujours la même chose [It’s always the same thing].
Lieschen’s family (6 persons) intend to sail to Canada on the 24th
of this month. An old friend of the late Mr. R. has made it possible for them
all to come. I hope Karl will soon find suitable work; he is intelligent after
all, and the boys (the oldest is 18 years old) can also do something. Lieschen
thinks only of her obligation to watch out and take care of them all, and she
is very courageous, considering the continual pain in her feet. Anna G. [Gustel’s
daughter[ who visited me the day before yesterday, has a chance to go to
Warrington near Manchester as a nurse – they are short of nurses in England,
they say. And now don’t be alarmed: Heddel [Emma’s niece, daughter of August
Saarbach and Johanna Gutmann] has given up her job because (she says) she
cannot tolerate the sea climate, but also (as Anna said) because she had such a
terribly small room in which one couldn’t see anything without light, even
during the day. And now she has accepted a job with a lady who lives alone with
her 18-year-old son. She is half an hour from London, so one fine day she is
likely to appear at your place, although she does not have your address from
me. But I bet she’ll find it out! Aenny [?], who has been for some months in
Switzerland – in Ascona, and lately in Locarno – is not permitted to stay any longer.
She too wants to go to England, probably with the help of Heddel, and (don’t laugh!)
she wants to take a position as maid. You will laugh even harder when you hear
that Aenny [?] (according to a report from Willy [Emma’s nephew, son of
Jenny Saarbach] to his mother) earned some 70 Marks/month with short
stories and the like, which allowed her to do quite well there.
Yesterday evening Lotte arrived with
Juliane. They had several wardrobes and cabinets full of stuff at Lisbeth’s,
which they wanted to pick up. Before she starts on her position as maid over
there [in England], she will probably marry her friend, who is however a lawyer
and is not likely to have many [job] opportunities. On Sunday morning I had a
visit from Mrs. Wolf of Oberstein, who had already once asked her daughter in
D. to convey greetings to me from…[name omitted], and I was very glad of her
visit. She told me all sorts of interesting things. She had talked to you formerly,
only on the telephone. I was in the middle of writing this morning, when my
administrator came and stayed some two hours, as usual. First we dealt with the
business of the savings account, about which I had just written a letter, and
then with the tax declaration [of assets over 5000 Marks] – Mr. D[ietz]
thought that could be done in a quarter hour. Hah! That declaration is so
complicated this year, that no one can quite understand it and even he had to
peruse each point [?] a long time. So now I have a lot of writing to do again
before he comes back the day after tomorrow with the tax forms, which he
unfortunately did not have with him. And tomorrow Adelheid [Emma’s maid] has
to fetch a copy of the tax form from elsewhere, so I can copy it
out, since he himself gives me only notes – I have to write everything myself.
Today I will…[end of sentence missing]
Greetings to all
FOR MORE LETTERS SEE MY NEXT BLOGPOST. For the originals
see LBI Archives AR 7167/MF 720.The translation is by Erika Rummel
and Susi Lessing.